If love was a drug, then I'd be an addict. <3 ;]

Heeeeyya! Break stars on Wednesday at 2:08 P.M. And I can't wait! So I sprained my wrist yesterday... well my sister sprained my wrist- Thanks Cassie. HA. But anyways I'm in video again... kind of bored because I'm ahead of my class, so oh well! ;) My best friend left for California today and she won't be back till New Years, so sad! I'm so bored right now.. UGH. Oh well. I can't wait until break starts... I'll be able to leave this place... that I call HELL. Alrighties.. I'm going to go back to checking my email, which means basically doing nothing. xoxo! Love Nicole Katie!

Yuck.

Well I hate my school, I think it sucks.. I'm in video class again blogging, waiting for my video to encode itself, but its being temprementle and aggravating the crap out of me. oh well. I have nothing left to do right now, besides homework... but I guess I'll get to that later, I always do. Today has been pretty crappy already. But oh well, I guess there is nothing I Can do. Write to me.
xoxo

are you kidding me?

worst day ever.
i can't even begin to explain.

suffering heart

Hey guys, I'm in video class right now... not too happy, but whatever, things could be worse. I have to take a test next period and I'm dreading it, but oh well... life moves on. I don't have too much time to blog right now, and I don't even know if anyone listens to what I say because no one ever writes back to me. If anyone is out there please share your thoughts with me on everything, because I would love to hear what you think! ;]
Thanks, and I'll blog again later!

Nicole Katie <3

love. love. love

i want to feel love. i want to see love. i want love. i want to love. i want to be loved. i need to be loved. ;)terribly

so much of me is made of what i learned from you, you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart.

So today, I was going to log in at school and write a blog, but my video teacher came over and started talking to me... so i'll just blog now! Well today definitely wasn't the greatest day... I did get to hangout with my best friend Nikki for a bit, which was good... and we talked some things over, but the overall gist of the day sucked, but I'm used to it I guess... so I don't expect much more. I have a ton of homework tonight and so much to study, and I am completely dreading it. Just sitting here thinking about it makes me want to punch a hole in the wall... but I won't, promise ;] hehe. Once I get bored of the homework aspect and studying this english stuff I'll blog again... and trust me it probably won't take long, though I need to keep the A I have in the class... so of course my work comes first! Anyways, I'll write again soon.
xoxo
Nicole Katie <3>

Everythings Changing, All My Hope Breaking...

So things absolutely suck beyond believe...
It's too much for me to handle right now.
I want to run and just leave, but I'm afraid
And don't know what to do, or how to handle it all
I'm trying to do everything ot just pick myself up right now
But I am just too weak. And I know thats a bad excuse... but
I'm trying, and I am getting absolutely nowhere... so its frustrating.
I just honestly don't know how much more my body or mind can take.
It's really scary to me honestly because I don't know what to do next...
or when the next eruption in my life is going to happen... because crap is
always happening... ALWAYS. And it's just too much for me now.. like I don't
know what to do, I feel like giving up, and I'm sad, hurting, and scared. and
I feel bad for putting everyone through this and making them suffer, well
the people who actually care about me... that is, because the people who don't
don't care about me at all... so they could care less about how much pain I am in
But anyway... I am sorry to everyone who I have hurt, I'm trying
to get better and I am sorry if you think that I am not
But I truly am... even if it doesn't seem like it
I hope sooner or later you notice.
Please forgive me
Love Always,
Nicole Katie