Everythings Changing, All My Hope Breaking...

So things absolutely suck beyond believe...
It's too much for me to handle right now.
I want to run and just leave, but I'm afraid
And don't know what to do, or how to handle it all
I'm trying to do everything ot just pick myself up right now
But I am just too weak. And I know thats a bad excuse... but
I'm trying, and I am getting absolutely nowhere... so its frustrating.
I just honestly don't know how much more my body or mind can take.
It's really scary to me honestly because I don't know what to do next...
or when the next eruption in my life is going to happen... because crap is
always happening... ALWAYS. And it's just too much for me now.. like I don't
know what to do, I feel like giving up, and I'm sad, hurting, and scared. and
I feel bad for putting everyone through this and making them suffer, well
the people who actually care about me... that is, because the people who don't
don't care about me at all... so they could care less about how much pain I am in
But anyway... I am sorry to everyone who I have hurt, I'm trying
to get better and I am sorry if you think that I am not
But I truly am... even if it doesn't seem like it
I hope sooner or later you notice.
Please forgive me
Love Always,
Nicole Katie